I got back from Mexico two days ago. It was without a doubt the most amazing week of my life. So many miracles happened everyday. I have been sober since Friday night. I am feeling tired and depressed. I want to go back to Mexico. I miss my friends there. It is a common thread – many of us have posted how much we miss being with our mayan tribe. I am struggling to find meaning in my day job but I know it is what I have to do.
Yesterday was my first whole day back and it was also Father’s Day. I was in such a sad state and struggling to make it a great day for the hubby. I had some wins and some losses. And my period is two weeks late and I am NOT pregnant because four pee sticks can’t be wrong. But I have been hormonal. Hating my body, my hair, my glasses. I have an appointment at two to follow up on my contact lenses but I don’t even care about going. My brain is not right. Of course, I haven’t done yoga since Saturday morning – I am probably going through withdrawal! I will go after work this afternoon and pray that it lefts my mood. That’s all for now.