Y’all. The celebration is real.
I just handed in the massive, gigantic, all-consuming, soul-searching, mind-twisting final project for my Master’s in Spiritual Formation program.
Part of me wants to cry. Part of me wants to run screaming naked through the streets. And part of me says that I should wait until I write those last two papers to be totally finished with my program to celebrate.
But you know? TO HELL WITH THAT!
We don’t have to wait until we reach the end of something to celebrate. Because the secret is…THERE IS NO END!
Life keeps on happening and we keep on going and growing and taking care of kids and caring for clients and we HAVE to stop for just a minute.
When I applied for this program, my ex had just come home from nine weeks of rehab and I thought everything was going to be okay. I thought we were going to make it.
By the time I was accepted, the truth that he had never really been sober had come out and I wasn’t sure what the hell was going to happen.
But even in that moment of doubt, I said yes.
To me and my dream of one day turning my pain into my purpose.
I started school the same month that I filed for divorce.
And I want to share openly with you that I felt so much GRIEF as I wrote that. Grief for what I had to go through during the days, weeks, months and years that followed. I have grief for everything that I lost…for every time I had to move me and my kids into a new home. Grief for the nights I could not sleep and the days that I could not eat.
I can sit here and feel all of it. And remember. And mourn.
In this same moment, I am so fucking proud of myself and the woman that I have become as I walked through those dark days, step by step, day by day, week by week… until I finally found my way out.
Five years. Of taking one class (or no class) a semester. Most of it while working a corporate job and being a single mom. I wanted to quit so many times! But I didn’t.
Somewhere in those five years of classes and being a mom and SO MUCH work on myself…I found the love of my life.
After I found her, I met the most amazing man. We fell in love and got married.
Then in the Fall of 2019, I was finally ready to turn my PAIN INTO MY PURPOSE.
Life just keeps getting better and bigger, and the work I get to do in the world just keeps getting brighter and clearer. I will share with you the big AHA moment I had with my own coach this week.
I knew early that I would take my pain and turn it into my purpose. What I didn’t know was that it was going to take the shape of helping women have the AUDACITY to live their best, most wonderful, vibrant sexiest life ever AFTER BETRAYAL.
That I didn’t see coming.
So… what does all this have to do with you and Mother’s Day?
I want you to celebrate the fuck out of yourself this Mother’s Day.
Whatever that looks like to you and wherever you are in your journey, you get to pause. You get to celebrate.
Because even if you are not where you want to right now, there is a big, beautiful life available to you – one that you never saw coming.
Can you do that for me? Even if all your babies have four legs? Or are all grown up?
Let’s celebrate each other, baby! We deserve it!